I am so excited I was just added to the President's List at SNHU! That is what a 4.0 GPA will get you!
I am only a few more classes away from getting my Graphic Design degree. I have learned so much and am excited to use my new skills and develop my portfolio even further.
Trump Captured America
I am still in shock over the news that came in about this same time last night. Donald Trump was elected President of the United States, he is now our POTUS. I can not believe such a crass person could get into office. But I suppose with enough money, you can get anything you want. These next 4 years will be interesting and you can expect a lot of art coming from me against the bigotry, womanizing, warmongering, government corporate snuggle sessions, anti LGBTQ, the mother-fucking-WALL, a renegotiation of NAFTA, militarizing the police, and pretty much anything else that has come out of the mouth of the orange man. The writing is on the wall and history does repeat itself if we are not careful.
We are now the laughing stock of the world.
This election season between Clinton and Trump has been a disaster on epic proportions. What a circus that has not brought anything but spectators and the worst in everyone. I have felt anxiety and pure embarrassment this season.
These two parties are totally missing the issues that really matter at this moment in time. One issue that I have seen my progressive friends post a lot about is the crude oil pipeline being built through the Dakotas. This one event has shown the corporate greed, the government back up to that corporate greed and total disregard for the sacred.
The Dakota Access Pipeline has torn up ancient burial grounds and could potentially pollute the Missouri River and contaminate drinking water. Members of the Standing Rock Sioux tribe have stood in peaceful protest along with others who joined them in their cause. Their peaceful protests have been met with violence from police forces and private military groups. Some of the videos I have seen show people getting attacked by dogs and militia handling the peaceful protesters with physical violence.
I wanted to try and represent this struggle visually with, "How Crude". Piping crude oil through ancient burial grounds and under a major river will help in killing the earth. What will we give to future generations?
If you have a minute read this blog from Jihan Hafiz. She was one of the protesters who was arrested. This is unacceptable. Humans must stand together for our future generations. https://theintercept.com/2016/10/25/video-police-viciously-attacked-peaceful-protestors-at-the-dakota-access-pipeline/theintercept.com/2016/10/25/video-police-viciously-attacked-peaceful-protestors-at-the-dakota-access-pipeline/
With my new wacom tablet I am able to really get detailed and "paint" with pixels! What fun this has been!
I just bought a Wacom intuos pro to use for my time at school. Since I have not started classes yet, I decided to just start playing around with my new equipment. I have to say this is the best pen/tablet combo I have ever used. It writes with no lag and it just plain works.
I decided to do a simple art project using my new toys and this new digital media. I am going to create a piece of art using the previous piece of art in it somewhere. So for example I created "Mandala" and then created "Raven." I used "Mandala" in "Raven" as the eye.
I am going to add "Raven" to a new art piece next. I will work on these digital art pieces as I get time.
My amazing friend Jonny Willi has just come out as an intersex person. I am in such awe at the courage and journey of my friend. Living an authentic life is sometimes so hard. But this struggle has inspired me to live true to myself and try and define my goals and values.
This popped up in my email a few minutes ago...I couldn't say how I feel any better than this. I am learning to be selfless and dissolving myself into, "...a useful member of the world family."
August 29, 2015
In the beginning of 2015, I was faced with the hard choice of continuing my art career or giving my time to my family. I of course had to choose my family, but it has taken me through a whirlwind of emotions. I have had to learn a new, selfless way to think and exhist in the world. My time is not my own anymore. I used to sneak away to my studio to work and just think. But I gave up my alone time to engage with the people I love.
This all has not been easy. I have been creating things since I could hold a crayon. Through college I still created in my spare time. Then after undergrad I began using art as a business. Like all business, success is determined by who you know. I just came to that realization recently. After all my failures I realized I just don't have any connections. There was no one regularly buying my art and seeing my art through a failing business, left a bitter taste in my mouth. My art has been my business for over 12 years, so to quit and just be a wife and mother was and is so hard.
On the one hand I feel like I lost my labels, my independence, my expression, and my purpose, on the other I feel like I am required to raise thoughtful, generous, passionate people. I chose to marry. I chose to have children. And I wanted to do everything, to have it all. But my business did not go anywhere and our family was stressed out. So I gave up a way of life that was so ingrained in me, that I still have panic attacks when the house is still.
I have learned that I am the glue that holds this family together. My partner is the one that's good at making money, I am not. I am good at saving us money and work very hard to live a certain lifestyle on a budget. My time is mostly spent cooking, cleaning, running errands and gardening. Some of those things I enjoy, some I hate, but all take time. When I worked on art, one or all of the things that need to be done on a daily basis would get pushed to another time, build up or get put on my partners to do list. There have been summers where I could not participate in camping trips or vacations because I had to get a project done.
My goal is to simplify my life. I just breath and tell myself I need more down time. I don't need to live a life constantly on the go. I need to be board again.
I am not sure if I will ever do art as a business again. I still have projects that I am working on, but the world will see less of them than in years past. It is time for me to live a selfless life. I must give up my dreams of being a respected artist and maker for the dreams of my children.
I am going to post some of my experiments and thoughts. It can be anything from photography to fashion to metal